The #TotalHonestyTuesday Roundup, Vol. 4


Every week, we’re participating in #totalhonestytuesday, sharing the things we’d usually keep off of social media, and giving a little more insight into our real (and very un-perfect) lives. Hopefully, in doing this, we can all feel a little less pressure to appear a certain way online, and remember that everyone around us is much more than just the highlight reel we normally see.

And every Wednesday, we’re collecting stories shared on the hashtag here, so we can read them together and start our mid-week mornings with a little honesty.

Thanks to the beautiful and talented @faganchelsea for starting the #totalhonestytuesday initiative. This is my small contribution: On January 2014 I decided to change my life and start eating healthier as well as working out in order to lose weight and be "in shape". I was never really worried about my weight or the way I looked since, despite I weighed 260 lbs, I was pretty successful with boys. Still I decided to do this because I was going on my first solo trip to Europe on May 2014 and wanted to look good and boy I did! Almost 18 months later, and after losing and gaining weight, in both fat and muscle, and going from pants size 38 to 33-34 (in Mexico), I currently weigh 216 lbs. The change has been incredible and everyone says I look great and that they admire my will to eat well (I still have Doritos and pizza whenever I want) and sweat my ass out. Could you believe that, after all this evolution, I am more self-conscious now than ever? There's not a single day I don't look in the mirror trying to see if I gained or lost weight or if my skinny jeans fit better or if my belly looks bigger or not. I feel it's harder now to find a guy for a random hook up or even to go on a date and, you know, I am sure it is not due to my looks but to my attitude; guys must be able to smell my fear of being super fat again, my insecurities. People talk often about accepting yourself and campaigns encouraging girls to embrace their curves have been launched recently (I totally support them, rock your curves babes!), but no one ever talks about men, it's like if we didn't care about our bodies, but we do. Body image issues affect everyone and we must be aware of it. #dadbod #gayguys #beardedguys

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