Exactly How Much My Mental Health Has Cost Me In 2017

The ins and outs of health insurance are something that I’m still figuring out, even one year into my first adult job and living on my own. A year ago, you could have asked me my opinions on one-person deductibles, and I would not have been able to explain to you what that meant. Ask me today, and I’ll go off about how ridiculous it is that one person has to pay over $1,000 (or even much more) out of pocket before their insurance coverage kicks in.

Knowing ahead of time that I had to spend $1,300 of my own money before my insurance started to cover things — or even just fully understanding what a deductible was — might have made me choose some different paths for my health this year. Unfortunately, I was already well on the path of change to psychiatrists and getting a handle on my mental health before realizing the financial situation I was in.

A little background: I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression since high school, but it took a really bad couple of episodes in college for me to seek out any medical help. Lucky for me, my college health center offered free counseling services, and I only ever had to shell out money when I needed to pick up my antidepressant prescription, which my dad would reimburse me for out of his health savings account.

This method worked great — until I graduated and suddenly found myself without my usual access to mental health services. In the interest of time and simplicity, I went to the first psychiatry office my family’s GP referred me to, and my dad would let me charge the appointments to his health savings account again. It didn’t register until well after I was into my first job and my own health insurance plan that the health savings account I had seemingly unlimited access to was something you actually had to put money into. It didn’t magically exist with my insurance card.

It was all well and good until my psychiatrist left the practice with no notice, and I took that opportunity to find a doctor closer to my new place. That first appointment was going great, because I liked the doctor, he had a plan to test out new medications to eliminate side effects I didn’t like and that would manage my anxiety better, and he referred me to a therapist that worked in the practice, because we both agreed that going back to talking with someone regularly would vastly improve my mental health. I went to check out at the front desk and was greeted with a $120 bill: the practice required deductibles and copays to be paid up front. In the grand scheme of things, this seemed fine. I would go in monthly at the start, to check in on the new medications, and $120 out of my health savings account seemed reasonable.

And then I went to pick up my new prescription from my local pharmacy. Even the pharmacy tech was shocked when she rang it up. She looked up at me and said, “Uh, this one is going to be $302. Do you want to look online for a manufacturer’s coupon and then come back?” Yes, yes I did want to find a coupon and come back.

I called my insurance provider, my dad, and my new psychiatrist trying to figure out what to do. My dad fully explained deductibles to me, as did my insurance company, and the doctor’s office managed to find a coupon that took $50 off the exorbitant price, because that particular medication didn’t have a generic. I bit the bullet and went back to the pharmacy because, for as much as that price pained me, I was miserable on my then-current medication. I was willing to try anything, even something that cost nearly as much as my car payment. (As luck would have it, that medication did not solve my issues, and I actually had one of my worst-ever depressive episodes on it because it just didn’t work for me. So at least I didn’t have to regularly pay $300.)

Medications aside, I had started therapy again. It was amazing, I loved my therapist, and I was starting to really get into some of my deep-seated issues and finding proper coping mechanisms. But there was one more catch. She didn’t take insurance. And her starting rate was $185 per session. When I faltered at the prospect of weekly sessions when the cost was that high, she was kind enough to knock the price down to $125. It still wasn’t the best-case scenario — my employer changed our insurance policy so we were no longer allowed to apply out-of-network costs to our deductible — but it was a little more reasonable. And all in the name of reclaiming my mental health.

This all started back in February, and it is now August. After six months of therapy and medication-testing, I am finally in a really, really good place with my mental health. It isn’t perfect, but I am stable on a medication I don’t hate, and have been going to therapy weekly or bi-weekly depending on my mental state.

But some quick math:

  • Monthly psychiatrist check-ins through May (once I stabilized on medication, I can go in bi-monthly) at $120: $480
  • My August check-in: $120
  • One terrible medication: $250 
  • Monthly refills of my not-terrible medication at $30 each since April: $150
  • Weekly therapy sessions through June, at $125 each: $2,500
  • Bi-weekly therapy from July onward: $500
  • Total spent on my mental health since the start of 2017: $4,000

I spend more money on my mental health than I do on anything else in my life, except rent. It’s not something I anticipated when I first set out to live on my own after getting my first adult job. At times, it is incredibly difficult to manage the stress of not having enough money to pay for therapy and putting it on my credit versus the stress of not doing something that I know helps me be better.

I’ve reached a solid enough place where I can go to therapy bi-weekly, which cuts down on my monthly costs, and reduces some of my financial stress. I don’t need to see my psychiatrist every month, because my medication is doing its job, and we’ve pinpointed the correct dose. My medication is not costing me $300 every refill. Yes, it still costs a lot, but I have a stable job that lets me pay those costs that help me be stable and happier. My mental health has definitely been better, but it has also absolutely been worse, so I’m counting myself lucky with my current situation.

Olivia currently works in marketing and likes to say she spends her free time doing yoga and writing, but mostly winds up spending too much time on Twitter and watching HGTV. 

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  • Katie

    Thank you for writing this. I am so appreciative of TFD’s transparency, especially about tough issues. I’m on the same journey myself–I started going to therapy again in May, but my insurance doesn’t kick in until September, and I just found out I’ll be losing coverage again in January when my employer switches insurance providers. It’s only $80/week (out of pocket), but it’s definitely been a strain trying to factor that in along with rent, car insurance and other expenses. The cost of medication, along with doctor’s visits, has been prohibitive. It’s so important, though–good for you for taking the necessary steps to get your mental health in order 🙂

  • Zosmie Khan

    Articles like this makes me really appreciate the Healthcare we have in Sweden. A visit to the doctor is 30$, to call and refill a prescription 10$ ( no matter how many), blood tests are made at the hospital and is no extra cost. And when you have been to the doctor/nurse, no matter what kind, obgyn, psychiatrist, dermatologist, oncologist etc, and reach the sum of 140$ you get the next year for free (from the first appointment that is counted in those 140$). Same with medicines, when you reach 130$ your medicine is free. Some medicines are not covered by this, but those are few. I wouldn’t be able too afford any kind of Healthcare if it wasn’t for this.

  • AK Barratt

    Really thoughtful article. I’ve been in individual therapy since I was a teenager and continue to benefit from it. But I’m always hesitant to recommend it to others, in spite of its benefits, because of the cost. This is a realistic breakdown for the US. Ultimately I have to keep reminding myself that health prevention and maintenance may cost a lot upfront, but would cost even more untreated (thinking about medical issues that arise from stress, or even inpatient treatment or hospitalization worst case scenario). It’s messed up that so many Americans can’t afford it, especially considering how often mental health issues are criminalized.

  • Wolf

    Here’s a short breakdown of the cost of depression and PTSD for me in Germany:

    * doctors appointments: free
    * therapy: Free. You get test sessions to see if the qualification of the therapist matches your needs, and when it fits, they write to your health insurance to get approved for 12 or 24 weekly sessions. (I have not heard of anyone getting refused here.)
    * medication: copay is 10€ per prescription. If unemployed, underage or low income, you can get that for free.
    * hospital: 10€ administration fee per day, but no more than 280€ in total per year. Can also be reduced for low income patients.

    * being unable to work: Ýou get full pay for six weeks. After that, your employer stops paying, and your health insurance provider pays you 70% of your average monthly income. (This works similar in case of being unable to work because of caring for a sick child.)

    In case you wondered, health insurance in Germany is complusive, and it’s about 15% of your income. It also covers your kids until they finish their education.

  • réka kassa

    so incredible to read you get your medication for so much money in the US 🙁 I take Cymbalta and my monthly dose is ONE dollar in Hungary (although we have a public healthcare system which takes 10% of your paycheck automatically, without this I still would be paying only 10 dollars a month). Anyhow, spending on mental health is a must so go on!

  • Robin

    This article is old but I had to comment after reading the comments. Some are saying that all their care is free but like 10% of their paycheck goes to healthcare. So if you make $40,000 you’re still paying $4,000 like the person in the article. I don’t understand how that’s better unless you go to the doctor a lot. I don’t go to the doctor a lot so that $4k would be money that I basically throw away. Maybe I’m not fully understanding but it seems like no healthcare system is perfect and not everyone is going to like the same one.